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HAFIZAH;
going on seventeeeen,
hafi-zah@hotmail.com
Wednesday, 29 July 2009
the smiley so cute. ^^
10:15:00 pm
Tuesday, 28 July 2009
maybe, if ...
i wish i have FOUR maids. so i wont have to do anything. and i'll judge them by their hair. if i really do have four maids, woahhhhh. power sia. then i dont have to takecare of anything else. HAHAHAHAH. one would be taking care of the kitchen, then two of them will be taking care of my siblings cause they are quite uhh, difficult to handle la i shall say. then one more would be beside me. anything just bikkkkkkkk! bik!!! bik!!(thats what i called my maid la) i want this! that! HAHAHAH. omgod. i make myself sound so lazy laaa. but really, maybe having four maids would be nice. okay laa. two would be enough! hehe. than my parents wont have to nag every single day about not doing this and that and me, not helping out at home. sheeeesh.
"HAHAHA. happy training!"
.... bla bla
"wahlaooo, i wanna go sia!"
:P "happy studying!"
inside joke.
bad A and S! :@
HAHAHAHA.
5:51:00 pm
Monday, 27 July 2009
find me the perfect reason.
6:23:00 pm
Daily Horoscope result on July 27, 2009 for Zodiac Sign Scorpio (October 23 - November 21): You may feel as if something is lacking within your home these days. This could be a reflection of a deep longing based on a childhood memory. For example, you might be dreaming about a spouse, a family, kids or a pet. You could be craving elusive peace and quiet. Or wanting more of a community feeling. Exploring these fantasies can be useful to a point, but letting go of unrealistic urges can free you up to find happiness in the here and now.
i dont wanna let it go. not yet.
HAFIZAHH:
eh cannot blame me right. youre always busy. then i scared youll find me annoying mah. each time find you when got problem. :/ - familiar uhh?
eh cannot blame me right. youre always busy. then i scared youll find me annoying mah. each time find you when got problem. :/ - familiar uhh?
6:23:00 pm
Sunday, 26 July 2009
i just dont feel the same anymore.
5:38:00 pm
we actually still went out in the end yesterday. but its not just me and mom. but with my whole family members. except that abg's not there. :(
Cik Dan came over to visit Atuk. cause his health is deteriorating. :( now he cant really see yknw. sighhhh. but on a lighter noteeeee, something made me happy cause im gonna have a new cousin sooon. and its a baby girl. (YAYYY!) damn big ah her stomach. :O
Hidayah came over.
OHHHH MYYYY GODDDD. (!!!!!!!!)
IM SO EFFING BORED STAYING AT HOMEEEEE. :(
I KNOW. DAMN NO LIFE.
like youve said. hahaha.
-i miss Paman too. like seriously. :(
5:38:00 pm
Saturday, 25 July 2009
and if ifs were gifts, every day would be Christmas.
"Remember, people will judge you by your actions, not your intentions. You may have a heart of gold, but so does a hard-boiled egg."
i try really really hard not to let that happen. i try to figure out what i did was wrong. what i could have done differently. where did i make my mistake? except that, its not that simple. its too complex. way too complex. a mistake just doesnt always feel like a mistake when youre making it.
i hate ittttt. ughhhhhh. why must you promise me stuffs thats not confirmed? you and your empty promises! right mom?! was super excited abt today till mom texted me while i was still sleeping, "uhh i dont think we'll be gg out alr la. sorry." ard 8 in the morning. what a way to start my Saturday. okay thanks mom. _(%$#$%^&* sigh.
11:42:00 am
Friday, 24 July 2009
"Do you believe in wishes made on falling stars?"
Plaza Sing after school to entertain Yiying.
5:03:00 pm
Thursday, 23 July 2009
I'd be lost if I lost you.
7:15:00 pm
"A memory is a way of holding on to the things you love, the things you are and the things you never want to lose."
There are so many things that we wish we had done yesterday, so few that we feel like doing today. ~Mignon McLaughlin
i actually slept throughout Social Studies remedial just now. i dont know why. im just super tired. i copied the notes halfway. i can barely opened my eyes and sooo i went straight zzzz. i wanted to go to the toilet to wash up, but was too tired to ask for permission. anddd, omg. i actually slept during night class yesterday. i had to explain to my teacher the reason why i look super tired la.
i wanted to try the cinammon melts so badly yknw!! but then when i finally thought that maybe i can try it today, but bloody hell!!! SOLD OUT. (!!!!!!!!!!!!) yes. no more. waaaaaaaaa. i went Tiong for nothing. -.-
theres Physics test tmrw. i dont have the notes. how? how to study? oh oh!! theres Maths paper 2 also tmrw. waaaa. tests, mock papers, prelims, n levels. ive always been telling myself. each time when im on the way back home, i'll think, "okay, i'll start studying soon. promise." for i knew that i dont have much time already but thennnnnn, actions speaks louder than words. so much for all that planning. i havent start revising at all k. how great.
i hate school life. sometimes. hahaha.
i gotta go for class already.
byeeeeeeeee.
byeeeeeeeee.
7:15:00 pm
Wednesday, 22 July 2009
the irony just keeps on coming.
(dont read if youre busy, cos its really stupid and silly.) :P
9:15:00 pm
(dont read if youre busy, cos its really stupid and silly.) :P
its been a long day. lessons after lessons and straight went for mock papers after school. after that i gotta go for my listening compre. i thought i could maybe rest for awhile when i reached home. but i just remembered that i have my night class or rather religious class laaaa later. zzzz. (ngaji) so i had to rush home cos when i was reaching Yishun, it was already 6 +++ and my class starts at 8. i know theres still 2 hours but i went to meet my friend for awhile. so yea laaa. had to rush for everything. exhausted.
" What happened to you? ever since you came back from the H1N1 thingy, youre like a different person in class. is there anything thats bothering you?" He said.
i went mmmm for a few seconds and i denied about everything he asked. but still, thanks for being nice. :)
"you know, the people who really matters stick with you in your toughest hour. and they dont give up on you, even when you make mistakes. when you stay true to those people, and yourself, then everyone else's opinions of you wont mean a thing."
thanks. i need that.
life has been pretty sucky for me. for the past few days. or maybe weeeeeeks. nothing went out right. especially yesterday. screw yesterday! haaa, i dont wanna elaborate about yesterday uh.
i wanted to try and make everything like what it was before but, i felt like im the only one trying so hard. you dont seem to care at all. and i just dont wanna give up now. not just yet. i think.
im so tired. if every week its gonna be like this, then i guess i rather not go to school uh. but then again, my friend said that, thats life. whether you like it or not, you still gotta move on. experience new things. learn to hate or love. just anything. you name it. try and escape? no point cos when reality comes crashing down, you know you just gotta face the music. so why escape when you know sooner or later you still gotta face it? is that really about life? wow. im only fiftteeeeen going on sixteeeen. theres still a long long way to go. but than again, life may not be that sucky after all. when you know that youve got really nice friends and caring family members who were there to cheer you on, make you smile, cracking jokes just to see that smile of yours, then i guess all this are just worth trying for. :)
NO NO NO. not being emo or what. its just about what i understand about life so far.
Goodnights. <3
9:15:00 pm
Tuesday, 21 July 2009
i actually lost my Diary. :(
Happy Racial Harmony Day!
6:25:00 pm
Monday, 20 July 2009
it keeps happening everyday.
Get well soon k!
8:59:00 pm
Friday, 17 July 2009
whenever something funny happens, i wanna tell you.
<3
Daily Horoscope result on July 17, 2009 for Zodiac Sign Scorpio (October 23 - November 21): If you have been procrastinating, today is a great day to take care of any unfinished business. The ambitious Capricorn Moon is in your 3rd House of Communication, making this an ideal time to write a letter or an email or to make a phone call about a serious matter that has been lingering. Tying up loose ends will require your concentration for a while, but will allow you to feel good about yourself later.
Goodbye! :D
4:20:00 pm
Thursday, 16 July 2009
cause people change you see.
(haha, Xs looks so cute)
k Xi song, i feel so short standing beside you. :@ hahaha.
sometimes i wonder, why people change so fast? or is it just me? im quite surprised by the fact that there are actually people in this world who could literally change so much in just a few days. :O everything went too fast. way too fast for me to try and catch up with you. i miss the old you but i also hate the old you. contradicting enough? hahaha. i, myself am not sure about it. :/ i feel like giving up. but then when you make me feel all better again, i thought that maybe i should just hang on there. or maybe i was just thinking too much.
i kept asking questions to myself but i cant seem to get the answers. should i just let it go or should i just hang on there? I'm sure if i let it go i will feel a whole lot better. its like I've finally let go of something that I've been holding it back for so long. something that ive been contemplating on. but then again, if i let it go, i will feel .. different? i don't know. i will prolly feel like I've lost something. you said, you should really learn to let it go. why bother trying when you knew that you're not gonna have it? its like waiting for the stars too fall down from the night sky.
I'll let you decide. decide it for me. show me the right way. whether i should stay on or just learn to accept reality. though reality hurts. everyone says that love hurts, but that's not true. loneliness hurts. rejection hurts. losing someone hurts. everyone confuse these things with love, but in reality, love is the only thing in this world that covers up all the pain and makes us feel wonderful again. promises ain't supposed to be broken yet time and time you broke it.
i tried to elude from all this. but somehow or rather, i actually came back to the same situation. back to square one. i guess thats what called fate uh?
i dont know why im like this either. i never stopped _. i just stopped showing it you see.
8:41:00 pm
Wednesday, 15 July 2009
everyone wants to be happy. nobody wants to be in pain. but you cant have a rainbow without any rain.
8:30:00 pm
Daily Horoscope result on July 15, 2009 for Zodiac Sign Scorpio (October 23 - November 21): You are tired of waiting for something that never seems to happen. Yet, you still cannot dissipate the tension unless you push yourself forward. Fortunately, if you are willing, you can free yourself to explore your future without having to carry so much weight from unresolved dark mysteries. true? yes no. hahahah. damn random.
Zakiyyah came over ytd night to accompanied me and to help me abit for my english oral. but we end up talking abt other stuffs and taking photos. but after awhile, i fell asleep leaving her alone. when i woke up, shes gone. haha. sorry! was super tired. Zakiyyah! get well soon! hurry k. so we cannnnnn take photos again and you can share me your stories abt you-know-who la. hahah. andddd, i want you to sing to me again! hahahah. i miss you. anws shes super cool k! cos she can do this! ----
(i bet many of you cant right? cos i cant do it too. :( )
anywayssss, today oral was soooo not easy k! i think im sooo gonna flunk my english oral. :( i kept talking nonsense. the older examiner was giving me that O.o face when i answered one of her qs. okay, i know its one of the sign. im guess im gonna fail. heck, its over anyway. no point talking abt it. J was nice cos he entertained me while the rest of them are still not done yet with their english oral. thanks J!
-anywayssss, happy belated seventeeeeenth bday to Kak Hanis. sorry i wished you quite late. i totally forgot abt it la. :/ meet up soon k! (L)
8:30:00 pm
Sunday, 12 July 2009
do you know what it feels like to be the last one?
12:53:00 pm
the last one to know about everything. be it good things or bad things. sometimes i really wonder, who am i to you? maybe its just that you dont trust me. you know what? i gave up. i tried so hard to understand things. tried to look on the bright side like what you've been telling me to do. i told myself not to think too much but ughh. i just cant do it. sigh.
now, where were you when i needed you so badly? when everything were falling apart.
12:53:00 pm
Saturday, 11 July 2009
mr empty promises.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DIARY!
*insert your face!*
you didnt take photos with me like you've promised. tsk.
2:14:00 pm
Thursday, 9 July 2009
Wednesday, 8 July 2009
youll never leave where you are until you decide where you'd rather be.
5:27:00 pm
FYI: THERES STILL MORE OF ENGLISH. & THE KILLER SUBJECT: MATHEMATICS. NOT FORGETTING CHEMISTRY, PHYSICS, GEOGRAPHY ANDDD SOCIAL STUDIES.
CRAZY SCHOOL. RETARDED TEACHERS.
OPPS! x(
IM NOT USED TO STUDYING ONLINE. ITS SO DIFFICULT. :I
I RATHER GO SCHOOL. I SERIOUSLY MISS GOING TO SCHOOL.
P/S: theres class tonight. should i go? tsk. why must my quarantine time ends at 5pm. :( it should end later. like at midnight. ugh.
5:27:00 pm
sometimes you just have to smile, pretend everything's okay and just walk away.
11:37:00 am
(takecare k!) i'll miss you.
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i feel like baking cupcakes uh. not plain ones. but those lacy ones. i miss going to Kak Sheila's place to bake cupcakes. chocolate cupcakes. then each time there will be something fun to do. like baking pizza etc. and oh, i miss baking brownies too at Kak Hanis's place. :( i just feel like cooking. thats all. lets go eat Frolicks soon. i missed it.
11:37:00 am
Tuesday, 7 July 2009
hahah. last time photos.
we were damn bored at library so we took photos.
heeeeee.
3:32:00 pm
follow your heart.
3:13:00 pm
im sorry.
im sorry youre sad.
im sorry i lied to you.
im sorry you cried yesterday.
im sorry i left you all alone at night.
im sorry i wasnt able to do anything.
im sorry i had to give you sleeping pills.
im sorry i could just sit and listen to you.
im sorry for so many reasons.
the fact that i wasnt able to do anything really hurts me alot.
dont blame me for not telling you all this. you said nights to me first. i wouldnt wanna disturb you. or rather, annoy you.
3:13:00 pm
Monday, 6 July 2009
isnt it funny how day by day nothing changes. but when you look back and everything is different. 
(taken eons ago)
11:24:00 am
(taken eons ago)
Transformer soon k!
11:24:00 am
Sunday, 5 July 2009
ive been running around for the past year with absolutely no direction.
Rainy day + Chocolates + Hot Horlicks.
I dont need anything else.
I've got my perfect Sunday.
Goodbye.
4:41:00 pm
Saturday, 4 July 2009
if one day, i actually start to matter, please let me know.
Goodnights.
11:11:00 pm
promise.
- i didnt know i actually had to wait 45 minutes for that stupid ambulance.
- i opened the door, and everyone was giving me that (please get away from me) kinda look.(now i know how typical Singaporean is)
- when the ambulance arrived, i had to bid mom goodbye. :(
- being alone inside the ambulance is really scary. esp with the loud siren going tee-oow tee-ow. HAHAH. get it? yes no?
- alot alot of things were running through my mind. maybe i was just being too paranoid. but tts just me.
- i reached Tan Tock Seng around 0830pm.
- i got pretty anoyed by those nurses that keep asking me the same questions there.
-how are you? (of course not fine right?)
-where did you go?
-what was your latest temp? - i NEED to take blood test. (i was lucky cause you accompanied me all the way)
- i waited and waited and finally its my turn.
- those nurses there really do have their own way to distract me while they take some tests on me.
- i saw my uncle there too. :O
- was too tired and i went zzzzzz.
- the doctor woke me up and there goes my resultttttttt. haahah.
Doctor Thomas(hahha. i still rmb his name): Hafizah, we've did some tests and youve got h1n1. positive.
and i wenttttt: huhhhh. - HA HA HA right?
- i wanna go home so badly cos its really diff for me to sleep sitting down.
- called for a taxi and i reached home ard 5am.
- ive been sitting for 8 hours!!!!!! (my butt hurts hahaha.)
what can i do when im alone inside my own room for SEVEN days? its been only the THIRD day. i spent my day, chatting on the phone. msging. how boring uhhhh. hehe. and taking photos. :D
OHOHOHOH!!! and i have to finish up my medicine. :( esp the antibiotic. its a MUST. the cisco will come every few hours to check on my temperature. they gave me a chart to fill up my temperature.
even as im playing the comp, talking on the phone, sleeping, i still needa wear this freaking mask.
#$*)^&(%^&#!!!!
#$*)^&(%^&#!!!!
10:27:00 am
Friday, 3 July 2009
if it didnt really matter, you wont spent so much time thinking about it.
im really sorry if ive caused alot of troubles for you guys. really. i hope you guys will takecare of yourself and thats all im asking for. i swear i feel so bad laaa. if only i know. then all this wouldnt happened. you keep telling me, dont blame yourself but i cant help it. if you were in my shoes, i guess only then you would understand.
N's and O's oral ard the corner and ive got this stupid sickness. now tell me, how am i ever gonna get good grades? okay, my mt teacher just called me. my malay oral have been postphone to 10th of july. two days for me to really start studying. sigh.
i miss my friends. :(
im really sorry if ive caused alot of troubles for you guys. really. i hope you guys will takecare of yourself and thats all im asking for. i swear i feel so bad laaa. if only i know. then all this wouldnt happened. you keep telling me, dont blame yourself but i cant help it. if you were in my shoes, i guess only then you would understand.
N's and O's oral ard the corner and ive got this stupid sickness. now tell me, how am i ever gonna get good grades? okay, my mt teacher just called me. my malay oral have been postphone to 10th of july. two days for me to really start studying. sigh.
i miss my friends. :(
i'll be strong just for you guys. promise. :)
9:15:00 am
Wednesday, 1 July 2009
im okay with where we stand.
my fever's like a roller coaster. :(
im off to see doctor. i hope everything's gonna be alright. :)
Goodbye.
6:34:00 pm
my fever's like a roller coaster. :(
im off to see doctor. i hope everything's gonna be alright. :)
Goodbye.
6:34:00 pm